a fool's journey

moving, mooving, moooved.

2008-08-02T22:41:00.001+08:00

my blog has been officially changed to http://afoolforlife.wordpress.com
see you thr (:

my second family.

2008-07-19T21:00:00.047+08:00

WALES TRIP.
at the airport
from left: young, older, oldest. (no offence kakakaka)

these two girls became unglam with their specs on

see. Two Days look good with the wayne smile

cool eye covers(?) bought by lix

Hoho. i tot he was a quiet guy but he actually talked alot throughout the trip. arty farty person he is
.

ENGLAND HOLA.
LEEDS UNITED stadium

LEEDS. people live in these boats

an armouries museum in Leeds

chivalrous knights protecting the castle

jian and i were quite bored at the armouries museum so we decided to do sth fun

a mini animal farm with horses and birds near the armories musuem.

OLD TRAFFORD. even though it was just a pass by, i feel super fortunate to see it. it's quite cool to see the second best club in England. you've got to be in North London to see the best. kakakakaka

First night photo at Britannia Hotel. a spooky hotel, but the guys bought some cool dinner from Marks & Spencer and the girls were just eyeing on it.

TWO DAYS in front a cathedral in Chester. we were supposed to be roommates la. sorry keith. at least you're still tall

PREMIER TRAVEL INN. the place where we stayed for 4 or 5 nights. super cool and big rooms with a countryside-like atmosphere.

Sherwin. a spastic girl who happens to have a big sense of hearing. i mean good sense of hearing.

Guin. the biggest penguin in the world

the irony of an ahbeng driving a police car

second night picture. first it was jian's bums, now it's my legs.

cherissa me and sherwin. these are smiles of excitement when the trip's still at the beginning.

the competition stage is colourful and nice

nono. always high, but not so high in terms of height

Sherwin, a girl who loves to take pictures with celebrities such as the one below.

Melodie. she seemed so mature during prayer meetings but its just the opposite elsewhere. hehejk.

Jian. my roommate. first ever roommate to give me a gift - the gift of viruses and bacteria. k la, he took care of lots of miscellaneous stuff in the room. thanks jian.

Isabelle. always wanting to be called ' xiao jie'

May. thats how she smiles

a nice lady who wanted to take a picture with us

LLANGOLLEN. where we competed

see the flags? the Singapore flag was put up to just that it was all red instead of red and white

Cherissa,before the results of open mixed. you'll need an extra jacket if you have to listen to her jokes

some people just go a little out of their mind in wait of the results

LIVERPOOL. that was the start of indulging into shopping and enjoyment after our competition

look what we found in the streets of Liverpool

a group of us in Liverpool

we decided to look at hares and rabbits outside the inn but they ran away when we came. so we decided to camwhore .

eh, that's what camwhore's about isnt it.

we had to take turns to take this pic and May helped took this

the sunset was cool

jian trying to be the next michael jackson

STRATFORD, a town of strong Shakespeare influence cuz he was born there

i guess what they meant was that there's no need to pay to do that kind of stuff

keith me jian hoho and ian outside a stuff-toy shop

some random clock tower in Stratford

proceeded to OXFORD and we went to Christchurch College, where the Grand Hall and Quidditch Pitch of Harry Potter was filmed. Unfortunately we couldn't go in cuz the queue was massively huge and long and we had limited time.

a group of us in Christchurch College

a street in oxford, where you can see smart kids walking around

i love the clouds in england. floaty and nice.

a tube station. no air-conditioning

mel me and guin on a tube to VICTORIA.there's no air-conditioning as well

VICTORIA! we went there on the first night after we reached London

this is nice especially when the rays of sunset were shining on a cathedral in Victoria.

this was taken in Victoria when a plane flew across the sky

BUCKINGHAM PALACE

it's some victorian monument (if im not wrong) in front of Buckingham Palace

i like this picture.

our first group picture in London

ST. JAMES PARK. there are lots of ducks in there.

beautiful view of the PARLIAMENT HOUSE on the left and the LONDON EYE on the right, with the St. James pond as the foreground.

i wonder if it is a pelican cuz it looks like one but it ain't have the fat beaks. all i know is that its enjoying its sun-tanning session at St. James Park.

PARLIAMENT HOUSE.

des guin ling and nono with two policemen and two horses?

HORSE GUARDS guarding the parliament house. They look like they're entering a battle cuz the two rows of horse guards were facing each other.

BIG BEN - one of the reasons why i was looking forward to London. The one and only wonder i've seen out of the seven.

St. Magaret's church. A small chuch beside Westminster Abbey.

WESTMINSTER ABBEY. its a freaking cool place with tombs of late kings and queens. definitely worth 9 pounds to tour inside

guin ling lix and i went to KING'S CROSS STATION, where Harry Potter's 9 3/4 platform was filmed. couldn't find the half trolley and platoform 9 3/4 cuz we didn't really search thoroughly for it.

Nope this pair of sunglasses does not suit me.

went to watch Les Miserables on our second night in London at Queen's Theatre. This musical's my favourite and the cast that night was not bad (:

VICTORIANS.

This is what you do when you wanna camwhore in the middle of nowhere

me guin des nono ling with the magnificent TOWER BRIDGE

TOWER OF LONDON! ( is it? )

guin, ling, nono and des on Tower Bridge

Cool pose, but mine's gay pose.zzz.

The famous LONDON BRIDGE. its just a bridge

St. Paul's Cathedral! 2nd largest in the world. Didn't see much of it cuz we were in a rush and you have to pay to go in.

Power who went to wales excluding hoho

Jialing. she had lots of money to spend during the trip.i should have asked for a treat. haha

Guin

Nono

Desmond. you got to find nono before you can find him. jk haha

Lix, always dun dare to open mouth and smile.

Sherwin

Cedric,my brother.smile more la

I really love this trip.
I may not be as high as the other trips i had, but this trip is certainly the best.
It's not just the enjoyment, its the experience.

1st for Youth, 4th for Folklore, 3rd for Open Mixed.
Given our targets and standard, we have failed. Indeed there are a few external factors which may have contributed to this results, but we got to claim this loss. Ultimately, its us who screwed up on stage, it's us who got this results and i can only say that i'm so proud of this choir.

VJChoir - You are the STAR who have ACCEPTED DEFEAT, who have shown the VICTORIAN SPIRIT. You showed all the other choirs that an ELITE choir is NOT just one who can SING WELL. We are more than that. We are a FAMILY with the EXPERIENCE NO ONE CAN GET ELSEWHERE.
WIN or LOSE, the song ' no man is an island ' stays.
Whether its a TRIUMPH or DEFEAT, we're still a choir.

admit it, its boring to be in a choir which always wins.
Ultimately a strong choir is not one who just triumphs. A strong choir is one who triumphs after defeats. It's really up to you future generations to determine the true strength of the choir.

Special thanks to Mr Kwei for your guidance the past 6 years. Be it TkChoir, Vocal Consort or VjChoir, without you i wouldn't even be in any of these.

It's really fun being together with you all. you know who you are.
God loves you and I love you all too.

Let's just work hard so that we can go to Wales together again. kakakaka

2008-06-07T01:03:00.000+08:00

1 week.
so long.
already am missing.
some.
sayo.
nara.

Starting Points

2008-06-04T23:43:00.007+08:00

if i just sit down and think about my studies and how much i have to catch up, i can really break down and cry.
i can't believe this, i can actually cry about studies.

sorry, i think im giving CT2 up.
sorry to my dad especially. sigh.

my family/relatives (mom's side)

Do you know?
A simple cell has a machinery that is far more complicated then the most advanced factories or machineries in the world today, proving that chemical evolution is not possible. Scientists term the sophisticated machinery in a simple cell as intelligent design. Of course, for an intelligent design to be designed, there must be an intelligent designer (：

closet mugger? smug that away.

2008-06-01T18:07:00.004+08:00

oh men. it has been a screeewed week.
what a wrong time to get addicted to dota. been playing it for the past few days.
so, you know, i've been feeling guilty about it and i hate it when i feel that my life's screwed up ( especially when i haven been committing much to God )
so woots, i just uninstalled it. BYE BYE WARCRAFT.

im still contemplating whether i should uninstall all the other games. maybe later i will. haha.

i really hope i can catch up with my study schedule in 2 weeks. with 3 weeks left including 1 week of tokyoing, HAHA. what else can i say.

I WILL TRY TO STUDY.

maybe i should keep looking at this post from time to time as a motivation.
the only vj culture that i don't wanna cultivate is the habit of being a closet mugger/smiling tiger.
i rather be true to myself and my friends. haha. got study means got study. don't have means don't have.

most of my friends are all having tuition. when i reflect upon myself, i feel that i should really go for some tuition. zzz, but i really hate tuition. nightmares of primary school days.
tuition makes me feel as though my life's under control and some kind of routine. the daily routine of school is already killing me. haha.
can i really trust myself that i can do my own independent learning?
tuition, or not? sigh.

frankly speaking,why are we studying?
i'm not studying for my own sake. i realised that i need to get good grades to please my parents.i've been studying for my parents.
yea, its really uber cool to have an honourable job and salary, but what's the use if you're not going to be happy or you're just going to be one arrogant peep.
i rather spend my life in Africa playing with the kids and do community service. i mean, seriously. i need a tan anyway.

for now, i'll just study, not excessively, but just do what a normal student should do, and rest my studies in God. life's so much more fulfilling this way.

lol. what a random post.
really, don't be a closet mugger. that's why i love my s47 clique.

Jesus we're living for Your name
We'll never be ashamed of You

Its Tenor Time

2008-05-29T20:17:00.003+08:00

This post is for Vjchoir tenors.
To all vjchoir tenors, i believe all year 1 tenors are having their voice lessons so i thought of an idea to post something of use in terms of improving your voice.
This kind of post comes once in a while and i'll inform you if i have any updates. Whatever that i'll be posting is taken from this book called ' The Tenor Voice' by Anthony Russell. I'll try to pass this book around the section as soon as possible so that all of you can print and bind it.
Meanwhile, just bear with it and view it through here first.

Just like how the book starts it, you need to have a mental image and mindset of how you will sound like, and of course, you need to have a proper image of it.

Firstly, whenever you hear a good soloist of your time, and you find it somehow below par, you have to bear in mind that
CRITICSIM SHOULD BE DIRECTED AT THE WAY THEY USE THEIR VOICE AND NOT AT THE VOICE ITSELF.
sorry, when i caps it means its impt, not that im flaring up.

Next, vowels.
The formation of PURE VOWEL takes precedent over all other matters, because they are the basic vocal functions. If you are or starting to have bad vowels, it means that you have some bad habits of singing.
Remember, vowels play a vital role in language and hence the communication to the audience/judges. If you want them to know what you are singing, you have to give pure vowels.
A SINGER MUST BE DETERMINED NOT TO SACRIFICE THE PURITY OF THE VOWEL TO ATTAIN THE PITCH,OR TONAL EFFECT.

Control.
Control can never be over emphasized because no matter what, control cannot be compromised if you want a good quality and/or a good range.
MASTER OVER THE DYNAMICS, RANGE, FLEXIBILITY, AND SHADING, WHICH PERMITS ARTISTIC INTERPRETATION, ARE ALL THE RESULTS OF CONTROL.

Musicianship.
I don't think i need to emphasize alot on this. One way of improving your musicality is to think or imitate a musical instrument that is best suited for the song or passage. If you possess a bad technique, it could well impede the flow of musicality, so be beware of that.

alright, looking at the rest of the book i think its hard for me to explain through blogging.
I need you all to understand and do get this in your head - falsetto is extremely important for tenors.
Start training your falsetto, and use descending falsetto scales. For now, train your falsetto range up to a high C (two octaves above middle C).
It's going to be hard and discouraging as our falsetto will be very weak and airy, but after much practice and effective control of the diaphragm,
YOU WILL BE A HAPPY MAN.

Remember, as each and every one of you is aiming to improve on your quality and range of your voice, do not compromise the blending within the section.Different people need different adjustments to avoid sticking out, so always work on that.

2008-05-18T22:07:00.002+08:00

i just watched channel 8 news coverage on the china earthquake
although it was short, it touched my heart

it has been 156 hours or so since the earthquake occurred and the rescue team did not give up at all,even though 80 hours was the probable limit to all survivors in the rubble

but guess what, the rescue team found another 63 people
these 63 people were left helpless without food,without water, for more than 4 days.
one of them is a 95 year old woman
and one of them is a 5 year old child. what's even greater is that one of the workers who rescued that child is the father,and the news showed how elated the father was.

there was another case, where the boyfriend stayed beside her for 2 days and 2 nights after she was rescued, and the boyfriend was seen half naked because he took off his shirt to cover her. while the girl laid down with bandage over her eyes, the boyfriend just asked her, whether she would prefer a western style wedding or a chinese one.
i think thats the sweetest thing one would want to receive.

screw media propaganda now. what i saw in the news was real.
those good things that i saw in the news, did not tell me how light-hearted the situation in China has become. it just tells me how precious it is for a small good thing to happen in this disastrous and saddening situation, that even if there's only a tinge of joy found, its a rejoiceful occasion for them.

and more earthquakes happened in China.

i think all these are worth pondering emotionally.

hair will grow

2008-05-17T18:03:00.001+08:00

hello.
1 more week to school holidays, or should i say 1 more week to studying

SOV2008
i don't know why, but the schedule we had before the performance on 12 may was more rushed compared to last year.
it was quite a wrong time for me because i had only gotten back 50% of my voice on the day of SOV.i sang my best on the performance itself, but the feeling is different when you know that you can't sing in tip top condition,somehow for me the enjoyment of music was lost,a little.
still, SOV2008 remains the only time i ever treasured a concert.i didn't even know that SOV2008 was my sixth concert,i guess i took the previous five for granted but i do enjoy them still.
its the sixth and the last,i guess.i don't think i'll join chorale.i guess its time for me to venture back into sports.i have the passion for singing, but i think the potential i have is not enough to hold me as a chorister after the Wales competition.

the fact that will remain is that i'll forever be in the VJChoir family.

SOV2008 is very much emotional to me cuz i know i'll never be able to sing with the true 07/08 VJChoir.
i remembered when i first entered VJChoir,it was in fact a quiet one.
i didn't really know anyone, and i only could talk to shixuan.victor and koktong was there but i wasn't used to talking to them.i guess it was the non-social(not anti-social) part of me that was displayed.i was quite alone in SCH during rehearsals until i decided to pick the courage and talk to may,rr,and xy.
12may,i decided to leave the true vjchoir the way i entered it-quietly.i rushed over to cafe cartel with my classmates(samuel,chinhao,jt,kangrong,chiaweei. thanks alot for the soft toy flower and chocz!)for a quick bite of cakes and i cabbed back.11.10pm, and i was home already.
It's really saddening to come to the fact that i can no longer sing with the people i want to sing with,especially xianyong and rayrin.they formed a big part of my choir life.
whatever it is now, i'll sing my best cuz i'm still a chorister,cuz that's a singer's attitude.i'll just do my best and help VJChoir claim victory and honour.
I guess that will be the sweetest ending of my choir life.

the cyclone in myanmar,the earthquake in china.
you guys feel for the victims and their loved ones,but can i appeal to all of you to take an extra step and really care for them.
perhaps its impossible for us to really feel what they feel, but i feel that we should at least try.can you imagine losing your loved ones in a split second or minute, losing your comfort zone and losing all hopes and happiness you have found?
can you imagine yourself with no proper sanitation and housing, food and water for the past 10 over days.
for most of us, fasting for a day is a sheer torture.can you imagine someone taking control over how long you must fast and suffer.
that's what the people in myanmar are suffering from now.when the government stops part of the flow of relief aids for just a day, several thousands are going to suffer.
it's not a suffering that we can understand. its a suffering that puts you in a waiting line for death.
the same goes for the people in china, especially those still trapped in the dusty and heavy rubble.perhaps even at this very moment,some who persevered to live on in the rubble for days,have just breathed their last.

do we even bother to take a moment, and try to feel how immense the sufferings of these people are like?
or do we just bother abt our tutorials and how much we're gonna earn in the future.

perhaps we're angry at certain constitutions for poor handling of such destructions, but instead of cursing them, why not hope and pray that these people with poor management will experience a great transformation of their hearts, that they'll see the light and help the several thousands in need,that they will put the people's desires in front of their own desires, instead of cursing them to die?

the bottomline is, are we taking things too much for granted?
perhaps its a lesson we should learn.
God loves these people, and their deaths are the beginning of their own lives. God saves, but we must save ourselves as well, and really live life, a fulfilled one.

hair will grow
and its all for you, mom.

i'm trying

2008-05-03T23:31:00.002+08:00

for the times of bad sets as a challenge for us to make it a time of triumph
i will triumph.

no, that's not just the spirit in me.
it's the spirit of God in me

2008-05-01T00:33:00.002+08:00

when you're all down and out
or at the lowest point of your life
the person you need is God.

things so far may not have been the way you've prayed about it
but that doesn't mean that God has not answered your prayer
it's just a matter of sooner or later

and if things do not go the way you're prayed about it to be
God wants to tell you that He has a better plan for you

we just need to trust in Him always
and our trust will bring a good return for us
God loves you
He really loves you

Saviour
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save

He will save.
He will.

SOV : Sold Out Voices

2008-04-22T21:38:00.055+08:00

To all people who are hesitating to buy VJC Choir's Symphony of Voices 2008 Concert at Esplanade Concert Hall
Dudes, give me some of your time, and take a look at these photos
Just look at how spastic VJ Choir people are
They are spastic for REAL

dudes, how often does Esplanade opens its house to such group of spastic people. Now's your chance to catch all this spastic people.
Please, give us, a chance to be GLAM for one night, as we present to you our GLAMorous makeover, and the quality of a world class choir.
be there to witness the change, as we switch from glam to spastic as you wait to see us after the concert. Only VJchoir people can be that versatile.
So come, watch us. we really need to show you how glam we can be.

ps: all those choir people who are not in the photos, you're just as spastic.

i don't deserve

2008-04-19T23:45:00.002+08:00

oh men.
musicfest was FABULOUS.
i mean. oh men. it was great.

TWO DAYS got third! we already expected the results after our performance and being able to perform in the finals is good enough.the num guy decided to give us one pair of num slippers each instead of one pair per group so i'm glad that we entertained him,and of cuz the audience.
vocal group rocks la.

OCTOBER'S LOSS
congrats on winning (it's expected) and without you girls this finals wouldn't have been that fun and happening.one spastic, one lame, one high. that's a winning combination. lol. thanks for the comments on our performances during rehearsals. you girls rock.

ENIGMANIC
and yes without you guys the finals will never be complete. glad to make friends with zara the tsd girl who can sing and tingkai the chinese guy wah flute so pro. also glad to have forged better friendships with cherissa the spastic girl and matt ho ( small group!). big thanks to you guys

PAPER PAVEMENT
oh men you guys will always be the best band to me and in the hearts of many. you guys got style and talent! the acoustics was screwed, but paper pavement isn't. & desmond you got style men to hug your gf like that. i salute you

07S47 - ASEAN
at first i tot you guys can't make it for musicfest but thankfully all of you can watch! wa i'm really touched by your support and the fererro roche. & of cuz your support when all of you came down to choir room to see me the paika guy.let's treasure the remaining months we have together!

LIX & CC
i almost got a shocked when i saw the letter lol. thanks SO MUCH for the watercress soup, strawberry milk and ninjiom candy that you two painstakingly delivered right to my house doorstep. sorry for being unable to join you guys after that, i owe you two alot (: and thanks for the balloon too

jialing-thanks for the balloon and for being able to hitch a ride back home
alena & isabelle - thanks for the flowers
jian and keith's s65 classmates - thanks for the flowers although we don't know each other. lol

TWO DAYS
how can i ever forget you guys men. i still rmbr the time when you two were going to register for musicfest and i happened to be along the way so you guys asked if i wanna join. such coincidence leading to musicfest finals is awesome men. we played hard we sang hard, and we achieved our aim of entertaining the audience.
cmon men, we got the substance.

and also thanks to the rest of the pple who have showed concern for my sprained ankle, and also those are supportive of our performances. & happy belated bday xianhui. haha.

I thank God for allowing me to sprain my ankle cuz without my sprained ankle i wouldn't have realised the extent of care and concern my friends has towards me.

all these good things, i don't deserve.
i really wanna thank you all

GOD
thank you God for giving me the opportunity to perform in the finals and also for the great friendships you've blessed me with. all honour goes to You and i thank You so much for blessing me with such great friends and great love.
for without you i'm nothing. thank You for everything which i don't deserve.
which is everything, cuz i deserve nothing.

A Busy Sabbath

2008-04-06T17:58:00.002+08:00

alright dudes, it's gonna be a busy period for me
i hope my teachers ain't seeing this

1) copy statistics 3 and vectors 5 notes
2)copy carbonyl and carboxyl notes
3)copy econs notes ( i don't even know what the chapter is )
4)copy magnetic field notes
5)do tutorials? (lol)
6)arrange the second half of musicfest song piece
7)running, running, and running.
8)voice lessons with the tenors
9)start studying ( which won't commence till 1-4 is done)
10)practices for musicfest
11)getting close to God

as you can see, i need to copy notes from all four subjects, means i'm lagging behind in all subjects. lol. i think im screwed.
& stupid napfa is coming up ( this affects my NS and i really wanna get enlisted in Jan)
ahh musicfest.
life's like that when you have to collaborate with some management you don't like.

maybe i should just obliterate these tasks from my mind and live in a land of fantasy.
alright, this world is complicated, but you know something. Life Can Be Simple. & my life can only be simple if i put my whole trust into God.
i need to learn to be like a pilgrim.

life has been a haywire for the past 2 weeks. looking at tasks 1- 9 adds to my frustration. i don't wanna be an angry man.
maybe i should just shut my mouth and myself and this world will be a better place.
rest your playful means, wayne.
please rest.

God reigns, that's why i live.

a not so horny night

2008-03-29T23:14:00.002+08:00

Tenors won. At last.
This year's horny night had less audience, compared to last year when several seniors came back to watch and even video it.
A not so horny night - the skits were less sick, which is good. lol.
I guess we learnt from our lesson last year, and decided to do more planning. So we planned.. one day before. haha. i'm sure everyone enjoyed themselves on friday learning the skit and laughing at our own spasticness. So, good job to all tenors ! it's ok to spend much more effort on it compared to the other sections, its good to spread joy and laughter to the rest.
the spirit of tenors has finally revived again. i'm glad for that.

I miss the year 3s, especially when i just stepped into the choir as a dsa, going out with them etc.
to all year 1s: try to go out more often after saturday practices, it's the only time you can really relax and you don't have to worry about studies if you can strike a good balance between work and play. just take a look at the year 3s who did well for A's, they all spend time releasing stress by going out after saturday practices (:

fast ended. means i can play electronic games le. haha.
i'm off to play some games, and with this week busy arranging songs for musicfest, i don't know how am i going to cope.

sing with me, how great is our God

break down and be broken.

2008-03-22T22:59:00.002+08:00

" eh, it may be our last musicfest performance we're ever ever going to have, so let's fight the feeling and go all out ! "

" yea! "

I really went all out ( within the safety barriers of being normal ) during the performance and i'm glad i truly enjoyed the performance. a big thanks to my spastic members Jina and Nguyen for daring to be spastic during performance.
Two Days shall live on. Fried Chicken Pies shall live on.

the groups in the vocal group category this year are unbelievably strong. this year's semifinals is strong enough to be called the finals.
but there's one thing i ought to say to all choir people who are in the semi-finals.
Each and everyone of us has indeed uphold the reputation of VJChoir.
we don't sing to just win, we sing to entertain. we sing to spread the passion of singing.

had church for three days straight from thursday to today, called the sanctification week.
indeed, i've been purified and sanctified.
i admit that for the past two weeks i neglected God, to the worst extent i've ever felt since my resalvation. i broke fast, prayed little, just read a psalm without the heart of understanding.

my network pastor told my tribe this at the start of the year: this year will be a year for some whose faith will grow exponentially, and for some, exponentially dropping.
indeed, it was a prediction that will most likely take place, but to me, it was a path i had to choose. in my heart at that point of time, i chose to make this year the period for my faith to grow exponentially, mostly because i was a new christian baby then. if given a choice now, i would have taken the same path, but my reason to walk this road now is because i love God and He is everything to me.

on thursday i broke down every wall of darkness living inside me, and God just came freely into my heart. I've never felt something like this so strong in my life. His presence just hit me so deep in my heart that my floodgates just opened. I couldn't stop the flow of tears, i couldn't stop myself from shaking. He came to me despite being neglected. He came because i was broken.
broken and contrite.

who else could bear the suffering of being slashed, abused, get torned by whipping hooks, pierced by crown of roses, nailed and crucified for the sake of loving us, having our hearts to be purified? who else but Jesus my saviour?
which father would bear to see his one and only son suffer his wrath and get crucified for the sake of loving the people? who else but God Himself ?
how did i score a B for math?( highest i ever scored in year 1 was 55/100 )
how did i have a smooth performance for musicfest?
how did i become so light-hearted and cheerful?
how did i lead a meaningful life now?
it's all thanks to God's amazing grace!

to all my brothers and sisters, never stop at where you are, never backtrack your path, never be contented with the faith you contain. go on and hunger for God, for there is no definite amount of faith you can have, but infinity. Christianity is not just a religion, its about your relationship with God. keep on seeking for an intimate relationship with Him, and rest in Him. Don't be envy of people having capital success with God, for there's nothing better than a fulfilled and meaningful life.
God is real, don't let Him go.

come feel and believe, before you have your say.

thank you Jesus, thank you.

two days.

2008-03-18T20:34:00.002+08:00

two days. that's our acapella group name.
me jian and keith.
really hope its two days men.

oh yea, i got a D for chinese and MERIT for my oral.
first time getting a MERIT. feels like an achievement none of you can comprehend. haha. D's ok la, Decent for my standard.i mean, its me. lol.

the past 2 weeks has been really bad for me spiritually. I've been leaving my praying time to the time before i tuck in and i always got so tired that i don't pray for an hour. my 'case for faith' book has been collecting dust. now i feel as though my life is being tumbled upside down. i need to try again.

had power dinner at lix's house last sunday. quite an emotional and still night for many of us, especially with those two great videos ( thanks guin, lix and nono ).
you know, power has been my essence of VJ life. although we were quite exclusive, that drew us closer together. no matter how much i've changed, i'm still the spastic fool, ain't i. i think its useless to try to put any blame on anybody ( yes i know i got a part to play, sorry. ), get on with life and get back to where you think there's life. I mean, if you like this milk but you've finished drinking this milk, just purchase a new one and you'll get to enjoy the same taste all over again. it may be quite difficult to purchase that milk, but that milk can be purchased.
i mean, milk is nice. isn't it.

alright it took me an hour plus to type this short post down.
& i need an urgent dose of step-up 2.

"For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified"- 1 Cor 2:2

2008-03-13T18:59:00.002+08:00

hi.
quite unfortunate to fall sick in the midst of a short holiday
cant do anything at home without electronic games and tv

choir camp's quite enjoyable, was able to sleep peacefully for the first time in school. different people of our group had different commitments, so our group size was quite small. i always get the small group in camps, haha.
stayover at ian's house was fun too. ian's mother is superbly nice, i guess that influenced ian to be a very nice guy as well. we played wii ( yea i just realised i'm not supposed to play ) and i K.O.ed for 12 hours,from 2am to 2pm. din't know what the rest did.
had churchwide prayer meeting the next day and i thought it was really cool to be praying so long over different matters the pastor asked us to pray about.
gym today was a bad experience.it's a struggle to carry weights when you're having a bout of flu and fever. din't feel like going home so i went to shop for some stuff. it's super efficient to shop alone. haha.

about common tests. i think i mugged a lil harder for cts compared to promos but i reckon that im getting back the same results as promos.

haven't asked my parents about Wales but i guess i can go. Hmmm, its time to stop thinking about myself and start thinking of the choir when i think about going to Wales.

a SICK post.

2008-03-01T18:48:00.001+08:00

Science and God

'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist
professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his
new students to stand.

'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely.'

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes.'

'Are you good or evil?'

'The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a
moment.

'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you
can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good.....!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if
you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He
doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even
though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can
you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of
water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student : 'From...God...'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there
evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything,
correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created
everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to
the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues:
'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible
things, do they exist in this world?'

The student: 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his
question. 'Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the
lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is
mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in
Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you
use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen
Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or
smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus
Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable
protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that,
son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem
science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a
question of his own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't...'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested.
The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat,
mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we
don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below
zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is
no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the
lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when
it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have
or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.
You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of
heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units
because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the
absence of it.'

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom,
sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as
darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night
if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the
absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright
light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have
Nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to
define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able
to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.
This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is
flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.
'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student
explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good
God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something
finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a
thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much
less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life
is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive
thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'

'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they
evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young
man, yes, of course I do'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he
realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work
and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you
not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a
preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the
Commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other
student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room... 'Is there anyone in the class
who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into
laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain,
felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No
one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of
empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no
brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain,
how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the
student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I
guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists
with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as
evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We
see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man...
It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world.
These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at
least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.
It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe
the absence of God.

God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when
man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold
that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there
is no light.'

The professor sat down.

Pass this on if you have faith in God.
If not, still pass it on for it's a good story!

40 Days of Fast

2008-02-17T19:54:00.002+08:00

40 days of fasting 1 meal
40 days of no television
40 days of no electronic games
40 days of 1-hour prayer

It's gonna be an extreme challenge for me, but it's worth it.
All the way, FCBCians!
All for God's love.

2008-02-17T00:19:00.022+08:00

hey here are just some RANDOM photos.
unglam ones are not to be copied.

God touched me through Nick - a powerful messenger of God

triplets. always (:

POWER. no you all no me.

my family during cny. & my sis the ah lian.

happy valentine's day

my class. & i simply love them.

so filled with God's love

hey. this is unglam. but who cares. look at more of this so that when you see me around you'll find me more good looking. chey.

without these guys i'm nothing in TK

a fool, ain't i.

wa innocent nerd me in sec 3

choir mates filled with brotherly love.

T2B. what more can i say men. but now we are all tenors ( good section).
now, half of T2B are gonna join musicfest vocal group with foreign talent Nguyen from Vietnam.
so is it gonna be T3? sounds cool to have a pimple cream brand.

& Hi, I am Wayne.
& I keep these stories with me
& feed myself with memories
sweet.

2008-02-07T22:30:00.000+08:00

I know its kinda boring watching youtube MVs on blogs, but the music, video, and lyrics are captivating.
WangLiHong is still the favourite. hoho.

shall blog more soon. (:

2008-01-29T22:24:00.000+08:00

that was roughly a year back, a looked-emo-but-act-emo pic. times flies.woo.

that's 2 years back,and i see myself as a carefree and pimplefree guy in the picture.
& that's not gay, that's called brotherly love. haha.

that's 1 and a half years ago, in czech. wa i feel so pimplefree and pleasant-looking, BACK THEN.

random pics, but they created a world of memories for me.
ever since those pics were taken, life has taken a huge change for me, both mentally and physically.
back then, i felt like i had this ' fighting ' element in my heart, that desire to make things happen, to go and challenge for things.
its was like a series of heavy waves in the sea - stormy, but essential to make a boat move.

now, i'm tasting peace in my heart ( no i won't talk about stress ).
no waves, so tranquil and calm, yet no boat can move on it.

if only i could have both.
who would wanna be in a boat that does not move? who would wanna be in a boat that's in the midst of a storm?
balance is what people are seeking for in life, isn't it.
keep finding that balance!

GOSSIP.
i'm don't like that word.
i think gossips are fine,
but we should judge gossips through people instead of judging people through gossips.
enough said (:

&i just hope 2008 will pass in a flash.

another random post? you decide for yourself

2008-01-24T20:56:00.000+08:00

O level results were out, glad that tk had done fantastically well.
The release of O level results is one of the constant reminders that time passes really fast.

At the stage of mental and physical development, all things pass in a zoom.
with time so fearfully fast, the lags that i'm having in studies are bound to snowball.

I got so much things to do.
too much.
if only i can ask for a little more time, to spend time with my loved ones.
cherish.

it's been practically 6 years, and for the past 6 years i've been doing rubbish,i've been doing nothing.
I've wasted 6 years of my life, but i'm not going to waste the life i have now.

I'm nothing without God, and He chose to believe in me.
6 years of darkness, but God has shown me the light.
I'm saved.
I know there are miracles, and I will pray in believing.
He is mighty to save, and He will save.

I'm elated that this MTV thing is happening.
hope that it will continue to grow and touch people.

I've been getting closer with my class
They're a bunch of fun people, really.
You guys rock.

I've been exercising, hopefully i have the will to carry on.
Its not easy building stamina and strength at the same time.
No muscle man, just a fit and healthy man.

There's nothing to blog about my life.
It's the Year of Sabbath, so i didn't really do anything, & that includes hmwk.
& jialing, i'm here to support you always.jiayou.

Sorry, my blog is always random.

He will save you
He will.
I will be with you.

2008-01-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

while people are doing their homework and getting busy with studying,
let me continue my break and blog a post.

its good to see the year 1s being so diligent in their work,
but pls don't do anything more than that in the first 3 months.
(:

had tribe chalet from friday to sunday.
hmm. it was FUN. slept for barely 2 hours for the first night cuz the rest were like screaming and playing away till 6. basically i didn't spend much time at the chalet cuz of choir, but the little time i had there was enjoyable and i was drawn much closer to God.

starting from this week its pumping time.
so tell me if you have any leftovers and i'll eat them. haha.

thanks so much to jhee, yc and yik chuan for blessing my family.

grow wayne, grow.
grow in faith, and in size, and in height, and in knowledge.

short post. nth exciting to talk about. haha.

Saviour
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save

2008-01-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

oh well,
hi.

its been 3 days of school, but i've experienced 3 days of fun.
cuz i've been crashing orientation 1.
ORION. i've been feeling very extra in o1, that's why i've been crashing with a heavy heart at the start of each day. but then i feel connected to the group, thats why despite
feeling so extra i still joined them.
not that i'm thickskin (:

friendships, fun, and a half price treat at fish & co. lol.

my allowance has increased and its on a monthly basis instead, but i've got to wash and scrub my uniform every night.
oh yea, i got back my voice exam results.

First Concert Certificate: 66, Pass.(there's FAIL, PASS, MERIT AND DISTINCTION)
haha. i'm ok with it la, it was really expected. at least i passed, but i dunno how to face my teacher with those marks, and i dunno whether i should continue having voice lessons.
what rayrin said was true, its not abt the marks, but its the process to the exam. i really learn alot and once again thanks NONO for spending so much effort to play the piano for me, thanks RAYRIN for going through that process with me, and thanks THOMAS KUEK, my voice tutor for training a failure like me so that i could pass the exam.

i'm attracted to you,
VJ Choir.

think, think and think.
more, more and more.
clearer, clearer and clearer.
better, better and better.

2008-01-01T21:00:00.001+08:00

2008 - the time for rest, the time of Sabbath

as everyone is blogging about their new year resolutions and stuff, i shall blog about mine too.

2007.
was.
a.
BLAST.

seriously, it was.
it was so happening that it cost me to be suspended from choir for 2 weeks .tt's not the point. i spent 2007 with lots of fun
fun,
and fun.
i enjoyed so much, i grew closer with friends, and i love VJChoir.
Heli & Francesca. Power. Lix. Triplets.
thanks so much, seriously.
without you all, i would have died
i can't thank you enough, i hope you know what i mean.

i'll come straight to the point.
my resolutions for 2008:
KEEP FIT. keep running and keep training. keep healthy for better studying.
BE A GOOD BOY. this is a general one and the more important point. i just want to be a good boy by studying hard, not bringing trouble to people, not being a nuisance to people, spend more time with my family, keep growing in faith.
i just wanna be a good boy. wanna.

to christians, 2008 is a year of Sabbath, which means a year of resting.
I won't rest and start slacking off, but i will rest by resting by playful side of me, resting the extrovert part of me, and just spend time quietly doing things that are good and meaningful.
i sound like a monk, but i'm not going to be like one.

so, cheers to 2008 (:

church countdown was great. i'm glad i ended off 2007 and started 2008 with praises of worship. a great ending and a fantastic start.

i'll never and i won't forget what you've done for me, my friends.
i won't forsake, i won't leave.

you have close friends, and they are in your clique
but you can have a clique, and have no close friends.

like a body, without a soul.
and it's not easy, to find a soul.
besides, its a two-way thing.

having a clear conscience is important
misunderstandings are bound to happen
i wun tell people to change, unless i have.

HAPPY 2008

i don't know why my font is so big

2007-12-25T21:36:00.001+08:00

Wayne's Christmas Clip of the Year. lol.
Billy Gilman's O Holy Night, when he was young and soppish.
check out Josh Groban's one too (:

2007 - a warm Christmas

2007-12-25T19:44:00.000+08:00

Last year's Christmas was a HOT one. a big gang of the present year 2s, rr, xy, nono, jl and i went to Marina Bay for a steamboat-bbq dinner. I could remember how smoky and hot that place on a crowded Christmas day. We then strolled all the way back from that stinky place to Marina Bay mrt station, filling the carefree journey with carols.

This year's Christmas was a WARM one. Just walked around a little, and then headed home for dinner.

Thinking about how excited i was about opening the gifts i received on Christmas day last time, i have to admit that i'm no longer a kid.
Opening gifts is no longer the prime reason for the excitement burning in me.

This Christmas just feels so different yet so meaningful. Although i'm now broke cuz of the presents i bought for my friends, i feel so happy for myself. I'm so happy that i'm able to give, that i'm able to share. I'm able to taste the joy of giving, the joy of true Christmas.
I dun care how broke i will be for the rest of this week, that's not the point. The point is that i'm happy, and everyone's happy. This happiness is different from what i've been feeling. If i were to describe it in terms of food, the past happiness i've been getting is like a big bowl of superior shark's fin - majestic and great. But now, i have a a cup of pudding - simple, delicate and savoury.
In my opinion, the joy of receiving is that of a bowl of superior shark's fin, and the joy of giving is that of a cup of pudding. Both brings happiness, but happiness of two different meanings. I would want to receive, who wouldn't? But if i can flavour my happiness with another element of joy, why not? That's why we buy gifts for one another (: we give, and we take.

&because i received, i want to thank you people for this wonderful Christmas :

my father, for buying me a cool adidas watch

my mother, for buying me a hip myuk file/laptop case

my sister, for buying me a classic vintage stone craft

cedric, my brother junior, for buying me a shirt and card

cherissa, my sister in christ, for the note and candy cane

desmond, my time crisis mate, for the cup and card

francesca, my bunny senior, for the dove chocolate

jialing, my doting daughter, for the hallmark card

jian, my brother tenor, for the note and jingle bell

keith, my brother tenor, for the note and jingle bell

kok tong, my santa claus, for a super interesting mouse pad that looks like a mouse trap

novabelle, my favourite bear, for the greeny card

ppg - ching chieh, jiaming and lixuan, for the gift which i've yet to receive

rayrin, my brother triplet, for getting me a cool candy

reuben, my brother in christ, for the note and jingle bell

rhoda and xianhui, for the cute mini jingle bell

xianjun, the mousse, for the merci chocolate

xianyong, my brother triplet, for getting me a photoframe with a cool photo in it

sherwin, the mild bitch, for the small and cute card

vjchoir, my favourite choir, for their wonderful efforts in caroling

zheng whye, my brother in christ, for lending me a lighter (lol)

and also to the people who wished me merry christmas and given me candy canes

most importantly, God, who have given me such great friends and so much much much more. Happy Birthday Jesus, without you there will be no Christmas and so much much much more.

Yea, i have to agree that i can sense the change in myself. This change just happens so naturally. I leave myself in the hands of God. Am i still changing? lol.
i am growing, and i will always grow.

I wish you A MERRY CHRISTMAS (:

2007-12-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

school's coming, you got to believe it
everyone's panicking, you have to feel it

juniors play and we feel pain
teachers want to fill our brain

once we pon, we feel pawned
we read until our notes all torn

7.40 the school ding dong
i'm will feel like a siao ding dong

people say no pain no gain
i say how bout we all faint

let's buy birds and have more luck
no need study earn big bucks

now i'm ending this rhyming thing
school is coming so make me think

ok. i'm really bored. zzz.

oh well, went ice skating with triplets and nono yesterday. wow, i would wish to have an ice skating rink at home.
ice skating makes me feel very free, and graceful. not that i skate gracefully, but you get the idea. however, paying 20 bucks for 2 hours turns me off

had tribe christmas party at night, both jacob and i were late for an hour plus. we were all supposed to bring invites, but in the end none of us did so it was like a tribe gathering. quite fun la, played abit of Wii and slack around.

COME CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS WITH FCBC THIS SUNDAY
1.30, MAX PAVILION. LOTS OF FUN.
READING THIS WILL MEAN THAT YOU CONSENT TO IT.

nah just joking, but would encourage you all to come. tell me if you're coming, then we all can go for caroling after that.
if you dun like me you can contact reuben cherissa or zhengwhye, or others
be more exposed to christmas celebrations (:

sorry, i think there's a beast inside me
i need to be born again
with a fresh heart, with a pure mind
and be someone better
it's not going to be easy, but i will try
it's difficult to stand alone, so God's with me
friends give support that never falls
you have it, so treasure it

amazing grace, amazing grace
please save a wretch like me

A Post For Christmas

2007-12-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

Christmas is coming, and we are constantly reminded of this festive occasion through the Christmas decorations you see in malls, streets, and perhaps a fanciful lighted Christmas tree in your house.

it is a custom for both the christians and non-christians to treat Christmas as a joyous occasion, where they exchange gifts and eat log cakes.

As i post my first ever post about Christmas, i would like those who carry the christian faith to ask themselves, what is Christmas ?
Perhaps we are too exposed to the mere lightings of Christmas that it often thwart the true meaning of Christmas.

It's Jesus's Birthday, and it isn't an ordinary birthday. Christmas symbolizes the great birth of Jesus, who's actions influenced us and the many people around the world.
He is the inspiration of inspirations, who suffered for us. Jesus is happy that we are enjoying ourselves in the festive joy of Christmas, but he feels neglected.
He feels neglected because we are enjoying Christmas as though He plays no part in it, as though it isn't His birthday. Is there something more we can do besides just wishing Jesus happy birthday? Shouldn't we just take some time off this holiday season and talk to Him, giving him the attention you can offer. Shouldn't we adore Him, instead of Santa Claus?

There are gift exchanges on Christmas because we want to share and experience the joy of giving. We should give some time and attention with Him, in exchange of the purified hearts He gave us through torture and death.

Lets celebrate and be happy, cuz we are fortunate to have the existence of Jesus, and of cuz God.
I've been ignorant for the past 17 years, but now i have a different and special meaning of Christmas.
Yes, that is Christmas to me.

Now i have carols to sing, and i have carols to mean from my heart.

I now i sound different from the very last time, but at least its something i have to say (:

Enjoy Christmas 2007, everyone.

2007-12-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

i just realised i posted the shorter one, so here's the new edited one (:

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace

-taken from hillsong conference 2007

It's not just the gospel of His word. Its the gospel of Power.
Although its only been a month plus since my resalvation, i'm convinced that God is the Way, the Truth, and the Life, and that He's with me all the time.
I do not have doubts about my future because He has it all planned out for me, and He chooses the best for me.
I am, therefore i live. I am, the one who follows the light of the path.

'was blind, but now i see
unending love, amazing grace

2007-12-10T20:13:00.000+08:00

back from genting, came back yesterday
overall, it was fun la, of course. although i had a flu frenzy which caused me to sneeze like 20over times a day.

xianyong, ray rin, novabelle, desmond, lixuan, jialing and i met at 6.45am at golden mile for the trip, and we sat grassland express ( cao yuan ) to genting.
i nvr sit such coach of the higher class before, and it was cool cuz they had a personalized mini tv where u can watch movies and listen music.
but mine wasn't. oh well, at least the seats were big and comfy

on the bus ride : desmond was sleeping and nono trying to do a nice pose

nono, desmond, xy, rr

xy with desmond's sunglasses on

then it was my turn to try it out

nono, desmond, jl

xy with his eagle claw, rr with his colourful helmet and jl, with desmond and nono trying to squeeze into the pic as always.

unglam jialing. that's what my 3.2 megapixel phone camera is for

rr and lix acting cute with des squeezing in

random pic of xy and rr. nono looks quite unglam

nono looks quite unglam here, with desmond

what's desmond doing T.T

jialing looked so serious while watching some movie

random pic

i left my mp4 on the bus and i only realised it today which is 5 days later. oh well, nvm. i'll gain something from losing something.

so we reached genting at abt 3pm, and my mood just dropped while waiting at the lobby cuz of the stupid smokers. smoking is not prohibited in aircon places i think, so the lobby was full of smoke. which is bad.
we had the worldclub room at first world hotel, which is the biggest room. the view was quite nice cuz we were on the second highest floor, but for the rest of the days the window view were just plain white cuz of the clouds.

the view:

after settling down we went to talk a walk down to the indoor theme park. we weren't enthu cuz of the fatigue due to the bus trip, and my stupid flu was coming in.

peeks of the indoor theme park

this is lix acting cute

des and i

rayrin and i

xianyong and i

jialing and i

nono and i

lix and i

i. this pic looks cool cuz my face looks photoshopped.

look at rr's eyes. we were queuing up for tix to enchanted for nono and desmond but couldnt get it in the end

the lighted sign of first world outside

a night foggy view of the outdoor theme park from outside. eventually we didn't go to the outdoor theme park at all cuz of the bad weather.

nono and des trying out clothes in espirit

this was damn cool. we took a walk down to highland hotel outside and the weather was super bad and cold and the winds were like those u watch in twister and the day after tomorrow. ( just joking la, but its something like that ). we were all wet in the end cuz of the clouds condensing all over us, but it was a cool and cold experience.

the girls

the guys

the first night was pretty quiet cuz we were all exhausted. we all took turns to sleep on the floor, sofa and bed.

i didn't take any photo on the second day and night cuz i left my phone in the hotel. to my horror i couldn't find one side of my contacts on the second morning so i had to wear specs and be unglam for the rest of the trip which i really did.

oh well, this is the third morning and look at the hotelroom-turned-pigsty place. jialing's still lazy to get up from bed and nono never bathed in mornings.

so it was our third day and we had lunch at sushi king. random pic of me

xy, desmond and nono

desmond was trying to blow something

rayrin act cute

caught red handed: rayrin trying to take a candid pic of me

random pic of xy

if you look closely at desmond's lower lips you'll find that its an unglam pic of desmond

another unglam pic of desmond if u look at his mouth. nono's unglam

unglam pic of lix

unglam pic of nono. what is she doing T.T

another unglam nono

i took this pic cuz i wanted to dedicate this pic to mong.

random pic of first world lobby

nono's unglam

rr trying on a polo tee from FOS.

new creative idea of wearing shirt like this

oh well, basically for the 3 nights we did nothing much. just sleep and sleep and sleep. nono and desmond were high on the 3rd night in a bid to make us high, but they failed. i think they got high on 2 cans of beer and a bottle of bacardi-like drink each. nono was so addicted to beer that she keep asking us to go buy beer with her although she had no money left.

so basically we slacked alot and shopped alot during the whole trip. jialing, nono and xy keep on playing para para in the arcade while desmond and i were hooked on time crisis.
if u wanna go genting, be prepared for some ill-mannered services cuz the service there is freaking bad. trust me, you'll love singapore's way of customer service after that. if you just ask for an additional request the people will just grumble. of cuz i'm generalising, and not all people are like that, but thats how the general feel is.

it would be great for the chairman of genting group to come and look at this post but oh well.

the pig sty on our last morning

on our trip back, with an unglam pic of xy

back to singapore. had our first caroling session today and it was quite bad la. i would first like to apologise for my bad conducting and loss of memory of lyrics and songs.
.

although we can't run away from our responsibilites, i just wanna say justly that a choir is not made up of 3 sls, nor 7 people.

so much trouble saved if saturday's prac was good, isn't it.
.

total forgiveness to me and all
this is life

2007-12-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

today i had my "first concert certificate" voice exam.
i tried to aim for a distinction, but distinction just flew away within seconds

cuz i cracked. and thats not all, i cracked a few more times.
cracking is the last thing i would ever wanna happen
i followed what my teacher told me, put away ur techniques and get into the songs
you know, i really prayed hard for that and God answered my prayer. For the first time i managed to get into most of the songs, and i tried to show my emotions.
but i dun have the technique to show it in the first place. the cracks just came so smoothly

but oh well. to be truthful i'm not really sad about it. what's over is over and i have so much time to take more exams, if i have the ability to. i guess God wanted this to be an obstacle,
and im glad i overcame it.

hurray to me novabelle and rayrin for completing the exams
that's what life is about, isn't it.

2007-12-02T22:32:00.000+08:00

i love this guy, i really do.
" no hands, no legs, no worries "
and today, he has showed me the way of life, and became my inspiration
he has earned the inspirations of more than 10000 people today.
almost everything he said was meaningful, but i can't help recalling this phrase he said, " if you give me a magic pill that grows hands and legs, i wouldn't want it, because this isn't God's plan for me "
he became a successful man because of his unfortunate condition.
so guys, lets not take our lacks for granted. use them to became our pillar of strength, and you'll grow
God Bless Nick Vujicic.

now jian is telling me that fast food is good
"just drain the oil la"
oh men, ure making it sound easy. its not 1 french fry, its dozens T.T
lol. ok. more fast food.

spent 4 hours doing nothing today, went from expo to katong to print, but the shop couldnt print my booklet, so i went to amk cuz i couldn't think of any other printing shop, but its closed. so i went tampines and ate indian food, although i dunno why they dun wanna give me the indian keropok when the others have it.
its quite enjoyable though, cuz i'll never walk alone.

its going to be a busy week
choir, sdd prac, voice on mon
voice exam on tue
sdd performance on wed
genting from thurs to sun

no time for gym, and i can feel my muscles shrinking already.
i bet jian's still using durian gloves for gym.
its good, cuz even durians can't penetrate though it.

2007-12-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

happy belated birthday to keith and nono
and happy birthday to wanting (:

there's going to be a motivation talk by this australian guy called nick. He's got no hands, no legs ( a tiny tiny one as big as my 3 fingers) and guess what, he's still smiling his life away, being able to do normal things like us, like swimming and such.its going to be great, just come on down at FCBC ( expo, max pavilion hall 9 ) at 1.30 tml (:

i just spent 120 bucks on this weight gainer i bought online, so i better get fat.

i want to apply whatever i've learnt from God.
i hope i can, i know i can.
the way i feel abt my life, and abt myself. its just so different from the 1-month-ago-me. i feel lighter, happier, more blessed.
and naturally, i'll continue to change.

keep fit, go fat, start econs, make people smile
(:

2007-11-24T22:20:00.000+08:00

enchanted is an uber nice show
as usual, its disney-like, but its worth watching how disney brings its life out of animation and into the real world

hmmm. tot that choir today was depressing. well it was actually.
i felt as though all the efforts into musicality and emotions we put in last time had gone to a waste
maybe i can't do it, cuz martin should do it.
i think im a jinx. haha.
and i cant sing that 'i'll never walk alone' for nuts.

tea party today was quite fun, although the acts were not dramatic enough
and the number of year 0s who went was unexpectable
shan't elaborate..

do hope lots of seniors can come back and join us for caroling, kinda short of people, i think.
and to jian, who doesn't read this blog, get ur ass into studying so that you can come back next year. vjchoir needs you. brothers need to reunite (:

a big THANKS to nonobear for taking so much time off to practise playing those songs. dun be stressed, and pls dun blame urself if i fail this exam cuz its not you. haha.

off i go. not an emo post

2007-11-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

just got a sudden urge to blog out of my no-content mind

i'm quite certain everyone know of the saying " forgive and forget " or perhaps from in a more religious way, " love your enemies "

have you tried to forgive someone who did something bad to you
have you tried thinking what forgiveness is actually is

take a step back.
imagine you have done something wrong ( or u have actually done it ), and you're asking for forgiveness from the party you've hurt.
you feel the utmost desire of guilt, pain, and the utmost desire for repentance

now imagine yourself as someone who got hurt, and the person who hurt you is asking for forgiveness
you feel an air of suspicion, and unwillingness to forgive just like that.
the point is : just like that.

terrible difference? ask yourself.

now take it from another viewpoint.
you don't wanna forgive that person because you are still harbouring that hatred
that hatred that sparks anger in yourself
ask yourself: who else gets the hurt of anger when you're angry?
its only yourself.

its Pointless keeping the hatred, that sense of contempt or dislike.
its your own heart that takes the deep impact

you may ask : why must i forgive and let him go Just Like That
then here's your answer:
you have no right to be forgiven, until you forgive the people you have yet to forgive.

if you can't forgive people, you have no authority to ask people to forgive you, or of cuz, God won't forgive you.

so, you are going to forgive people you hate, for the sake of getting the chance to be forgiven in any situation?
now take many steps back, and ask what's Forgiveness.

here's an example:
A: hey B, you know, i'm really sorry for treating you so bad for the past few months
B: errrr. you know. its ok. you are forgiven.

thats forgiveness?
ask me, and i'll say no.

don't think of forgiveness as forgiveness.
from now on, think forgiveness as Total Forgiveness

Total Forgiveness is when you forgive a party the same proportion as how you want people or God to forgive you, and at the same time, hope for the best for that party, hope that he/she will do well in life, asking God to bless him/her.
that's forgiveness.

you want to give, from your heart, the best wishes to the person you're forgiving. the person who has brought you trouble in negative ways.

whoever person you've been bearing a grudge on
forgive that person through the true meaning of forgiveness

your heart will feel lighter, you will be happier

(:

2007-11-17T20:11:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAY RIN (:

( identification of people in the above pictures are subjected to your own imagination, thoughts and views )

2007-11-16T13:12:00.001+08:00

2007-11-16T12:20:00.000+08:00

hey guys, here's the good news

as i promised, part 4 is here (:

hmmhmm. so i stopped at CNY 06.

i got to admit that i was a NAUGHTY boy especially in first 3 months. I ponned lessons like free.
Result : Suspended from Choir for 2 weeks, including Choir Camp
but you know, me being me. shan't elaborate more (:

CHOIR CAMP

oops. im talking abt choir camp.
sorry, i dun think i have any pictures of choir camp. but yea, my group was FCUK, under isabelle and pao. i rmbr being so enthu abt making grp cheers. lol.
you know the irritating part of any camp is the chionging/waiting for shower. Being considerate by giving a chance for the others to shower in the changing room, both Jian and i grabbed 2 pails and we mixed both hot and cold water to obtain WARM water for shower.
price to pay for warm water and being considerate: tremendous effort and energy to carry the pails from the canteen to the 4th floor toilet of the V block. also, there was once i forgot to wash the pail before adding the water, so my skin kinda itched after the shower T.T

the games were quite fun la. i rmbr my grp being so enthu abt the food trail but in the end we got third.
let's hope the future year 1s can make next year's choir camp a better one

by right SYF would be the next chapter but i have an extra sth before that
NTUC MUSICAL

oh well, that required lots of photos and im getting lazy so i'll bring this to an end of part 4.
watch out for part 5 (:

anw, a big birthday greeting to jeremy and ruhui
happy 17th (:

2007-11-12T23:39:00.000+08:00

Prague.
A city of love and beauty
its old yet new, simple yet beautifully sophiscated
The sceneries will make you feel belittled
trust me, before you step out of prague, it will be the most beautiful city you've ever visited

perhaps some mozart's chocolates will wrap up the whole package perfectly

i don't know what i am doing

2007-11-11T23:32:00.000+08:00

11 November is a special day for me
its the day i stepped into the world of God after years of hiding
now, i feel that the past me is a coward, a coward who doesn't goes to church

i went to FCBC before, and nvr went back after 3 years
but today i was confident to tell my friends that it won't be another 3 years for me to take the next visit
i need directions
and i want God to walk me through my life
God wants me back, and i know that through the indications He gave me.

i'm glad i opened my heart to Him again
i feel GREAT.
(:

had a class chalet a few days ago and it was fun
it was cool when we started talking about politics, GLOBAL WARMING and other mature issues
and i lost my new num sandals there.

global warming.
although i love the sun very much
i hate global warming.

i think we need to spare a thought for our grandchildren and the younger generations
we wouldn't want them to suffer the consequences of our selfish actions
i'm sure everyone can feel the distinct change of temperature from 10 years back till now

its just 10 years.
and we have at least 50 more years to live.
with the increasing increase in temperatures
cosmetics can't provide much help to our burning skin
and we'll be swimming underwater with the dying fishes and the height we are at

support Mother Earth.
do your own part to save our rightful place
(:

2007-10-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

its been too long since i last blogged

i guess i've been busy
doing nothing.

i tot i was gg to have a good rest during the holidays before the hectic year 2 starts
but now i dont see anything in it

choir has never been a bore to me
but now its getting more difficult to believe so

i miss the seniors terribly, their absence carries something heavy to me
but now, the change is everything.
is thr sth wrong with me, or with the choir?

where is the FAMILY
where is the WARMTH
where is vjchoir

im not working FOR a top company which only know how to be the best
im singing IN a family
or i should say, i want to sing in a family
not a secondary school choir
not a state

if you lead the choir but you dun love it, quit it
if you can't lead the choir but you love it, carry on with it

think SIMPLE.

life sucks
zz

2007-09-02T17:34:00.000+08:00

A DIFFERENT POST

oh well, this is just a different post from the ' parts ' i've been posting, and the continuation of part 3 ' part 4', will come soon

i like birthdays, be it others or mine, because it brings friends together, brings families together. it is this presence of the bond you share with your friends and family members that makes birthdays meaningful.

you don't have to wait for your birthday for that to happen
the only difference between your birthday and other people's birthday is a mere temporary thing called attention, although theoretically it means presents as well

does it matter who gets the attention?
everyone will still be happy at the end of the day

to me, my birthday has to be meaningful.
its only meaningful when i share it with my family and friends
because if they don't smile, how can i possibly bring out a smile ?

a birthday is a mark of your new age
and for your friends to show their appreciation

i just want to tell my friends that i am already much appreciated by them
and they will still be appreciated by me

to lix, thanks for the happiness you've given me, including tomorrow

to my family, i'm loved

thanks all.

to wayne, today isn't ur birthday, so get down to studying you pig

2007-09-01T11:31:00.000+08:00

PART 3

oh yea, and i knew some other people too, and knew the seniors better.

i must say that caroling is one thing u can't expect to draw a huge crowd like how a concert performance does. there are times you have to sing when only a few people would turn their eyes on you, and when people walking past as though we had no existence. it doesn't really matter to me anyway, whether we're singing to a huge crowd or just 2 or 3. i dun think the size of the audience matters at all. as long as we can bring out the festive season to that 2 or 3 people watching, bring them the smiles, and most importantly enjoy caroling ourselves, i feel that its all these that matters.
i think through caroling we can conclude that westerners enjoy caroling more than easterners. perhaps the festive joy of Christmas is felt more acutely in the west. it's always comforting and encouraging to see their broad smiles and the attention they are giving.
i'll always remember that table of westerners in a cosy restaurant at ritz on Christmas eve.
oh yea, carolling at Christmas eve was cool for the ritz people. we had to hold candles while caroling and trying not to get the fire extinguished while walking to the other venues.
i want ritz on Christmas eve!

on Christmas day in the afternoon, vj, vc, and the alumni will get together in raffles to carol. usually lots of people will get there for the caroling session, and being in that huge choir caroling makes you feel as though you're in a middle of a blasting stereo system. everyone will just blast ( of cuz with technique) and make you feel as though you're a puny singer with a minimum sound, but the feeling is unforgettable.

caroling is grand, festive, and warm.

tada. bye bye caroling, see you again(hopefully).

"O night when Christ was born, we sing: O night divine, O night divine "

OTHER ENJOYABLE THINGS WE DID DURING DECEMBER HOLIDAYS

Shuwei's birthday :

what is rr doing T.T

An outing with oliver, fran, mel, wanting, jl, xy, may, yizha and rr the photographer:

guess who?

christmas dinner at dawn's house:

johnnie cooking. others include dawn's cooking ( woots )

not forgetting the stay at dawn's house on 31st dec for the countdown of the new year plus yuting's birthday celebration which we prepared a scary trail for her.

and also the stupid game i played with huping rr xy jl and heli during the stayover at jl's house =DDD

tada. bye 2006

FIRST 3 MONTHS FIRST 3 MONTHS FIRST 3 MONTHS FIRST 3 MONTHS FIRST 3 MONTHS

i am so glad that i knew the year 0s before first 3 months, if not i would just be a loner.

THADDEUS, TOO.
i remember rr xy jl and heli laughing at my small og name cuz they were beside me when i received the phone call.
rr and nono got into creon, xy in orpheus and jl in iago.
with the ogls giving out points like free, it was no longer reliable to rank the og through points.
and with THADDEUS having the best cheers,
you know its the sneaky black hooded stealth assassin who rocked the house down
*slash slash*
i dunno why they let an octopus win. =D

let's not talk about mass dance, i dunno anything about it now.
lucky saira was in my og, its really rare to have a fellow tksian in ur small og ( cuz u noe, tk ): ) without her i would have danced with some unknown girl cuz the year 1 josiah wouldn't wanna dance with me. he just wanna dance with girls ( i dun think u'll ever read my blog josiah. no offence anw (: )

sea regatta was damn fun. i remember employing my og mates to help me dunk novabelle. of cuz, i will CERTAINLY remember rr and xy ( i can't remember the rest ) who dunked me although it was their strength that did it, not their two feet.
there's only one person they can use their feet on, cuz their strength is not enough to overcome the great force of mg ( i love physics)

sorry for trying to make a scandal out of you two. =D
you two have proven yourselves innnocent, SLs of the lower sections (:

CHINESE NEW YEAR

novabelle invited us to her house for cny which i went for awhile only

a bimbotic pose by dawn, sherwin and kenny at nono's house

END OF PART 3 =) part 4 coming soon

2007-08-31T21:43:00.000+08:00

PART 2 =D

yeap, i remember that in malacca i had no interest in who was beside my apartment and so on cuz i knew rr and xy were gg to be in the same apartment. unluckily our apartment was in the corner with sandhya's. of cuz, i remembered sx gg there a day earlier to do some admin stuff but i wondered where he stayed for that night.

the buffet food served was just average, and there were lots of stupid houseflies flying aroumd the food
the environment for eating was quite ok la

ok, maybe only quite ok.

masterclasses were kinda interesting, although i didnt really fully pay attention to it. plus, i think i learnt nothing.

the 2nd night was cool, for the fact that we came up to perform christmas carols. not cool cuz i spent the 2nd day trying to memorise the carols but i forgot and just mouthed during the performance. lucky caroling with consort did helped me.
plus it was the first feeling i felt COOL. it was COOL becuz when it was our turn to go on stage everyone just cheered so loudly. being the last performance, we knew that the applause was the loudest especially from secondary schools. that feeling is COOL. its the vjchoir feeling.

cheers to johnnie who dressed up as santa claus during the christmas night and also to my shixiong wanting

syf presentation was ok la. as usual we were the last. although the performance wasn't up to our standard, it was still good.

you can't spot me =D

how can i forget the year 0s who went for the trip.
woots to victor rayrin xianyong pao melodie zhenni jialing and most importantly me.

our apartment was so popular with people! lol.
left side of the room: may dawn francesca huping david

right side of the room: danny wanting sharon heli frederick kenny elroy yizha oliver
i'm sure you know what yizha is pointing at =D

tada. bye bye malacca.

CAROLING CAROLING CAROLING CAROLING CAROLING

although caroling took up a huge time of my holidays after o-levels
its worth it cuz its an enjoyment

if i'm not wrong, our first caroling was in marina square?

caroling at marina square

we had other carolings such as one in the pines country club ( izzit? ) and the seniors had some sia lunch performance thingy
of cuz, we have RITZ and RAFFLES
through caroling, i knew more year 0s

Name: Jialing the Kimberly
factfile: first year 0 girl i really talked to.
likes: to be emo, strawberries
weapon: deprived of weapon due to incorrect gender

name: nono the ayesha
animal genes (if any) : overflow of bear genes
something to be proud of: acted in the famous childhood show 'bananas in pyjamas' as an extra called morgan.
likes: to get high
weapon: deprived of weapon due to incorrect gender

AHHHH. i'm damn tired. part 2 shall end here.
part 3 will come shortly (:

2007-08-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

it seemed like weeks
but it's been more than a year

i could still remember the time when i signed the dsa form outside the staff room with victor and melodie. vividly, i knew that at that point of time nothing was going through my mind, not even my future in vj, or how vj choir was going to be like when i'm in there. i guess i just wanted to sign the papers and go home.

perhaps i'm so dao that basically nothing goes into my head
but no matter how dao you are its impossible to not feel the warmth of vjchoir entering your heart, your mind, your life.

i remember during the first vj choir prac, shi xuan said to the seniors " he's also nelson's playboy ".
thanks shixuan, for implying that you are one too (:
just like how shy juniors would follow their seniors, i followed shixuan, although not really alot since i always go home after practice.
i can still remember that the first section in vjchoir to wow me in the first practice was the sopranos. ( random fact )

eh. i think i remembered rayrin saying hi to me randomly in siglap south cc. i said hi back but i guess it was so soft that i guessed he thinks i dao him. then there was one time i tried to talk to him but he couldn't hear so i just ignored what i said. haha.

oh, did i just talk about rayrin.

TADA. the panda boy.
first impression: the dunman high bass lo
weapon: his two feet
weapon successfully on : neeeell-sern ( pronounce it )
animal genes( if any) : panda
status: ENDANGERED.

yea. so that was him. hee
the practices at siglap zoomed fast, and soon we had to rehearse at SCH with the orchestra conductor and also with the orchestra for quite a number of times, mostly till late at night.

project: SCO 50th anniversary ( izzit )
benefits: loads of buns and water during breaks
pain: standing for damn long while the orchestra could sit. unless you were jerrold who filed his notes in a black file and read it whenever the choir doesn't have to sing
real pain: sprained my ankle which caused me to miss the second night of performance
result: i love chinese songs ( seriously. really la. )

so sco was indeed fun. i could remember the female year 0s who stick to themselves like glue. i can only remember jialing, melodie, vicky, sherwin and pao? lol.

i remember..seeing a dunman high guy, catholic high guy and a vj girl hanging out always, but suddenly i had so much guts that i decided to join them and talk to them.

TADA. the monkey boy.
first impression: the cat high guy who is always with daniel
weapon: his two feet
weapon successfully on : neeell-sern ( familiar )
animal genes ( if any ) : overflow of monkey genes
lacks : deprived of wearing long pants for two years

TADA. the ip girl.
first impression: the say hi girl
weapon: thunder thighs
weapons successfully on : unknown
animal genes: unknown

when three powers and one extra power combine :

you get the triplets and may.

thats sco with the seniors whom i never thought would be so nice at that time
and that's rayrin acting cool!

with that, sco was ended on a high note. as for me, it ended with a sprained ankle.

from then on, it was all mugging sessions with rayrin, xianyong and may. we frequently mugged at changi airport, been mugging at rayrin's house, some ulu kfc in tampines, bedok macs, and more especially for them.
got bad results in the end. ):
oh i mean only me la T.T

with o levels over, it was rayrin's birthday. xianyong and i shared a billabong belt. haha random.

then it was tea party!
with oliver as charlie, yi zha as kenny, kenny as yi zha, jeremy gan as gan ni pa, gen rong as jin kuai lan, shixuan as nelson, juit lian as lian lian and more.
also, we have lydia as our sc, yen yu was our president, the adhoc as the exco, and johnnie as the bass sl
it was fun fun fun.
yes novabelle sorry i daoded you. thinking about it, the balloon game was quite lame right. lol.

er. was it malacca first or tea party first? T.T
yes, malacca trip!
i rmbr sharing cab to vj with huping, rayrin and maybe jialing? ( oops sorry cant rmbr T.T )
the bus trip there was spent learning and memorising carols, not forgetting puzzle bubble.

the apartment in malacca! so much better than hotel room la. the triplets and jerrold shared this apartment. it rocks!

the view of the balcony rocks too. the bridge is cool cuz we will always jump on it so that people will have a hard time walking. especially when johnnie is the culprit.

RAHHHHH.
i'm tired.
ok, this is part 1.
part 2 shall continue SOON.
sorry for the boring post

2007-08-23T22:22:00.000+08:00

ok, give me some time

and i'll post about everything. everything. the 365++ days i had with vjchoir

happy belated birthday xianyong
that comes with a belated present soon (:

everything

2007-08-15T21:01:00.000+08:00

=D

im kinda having a fever now. what a wrong time

2007-07-31T21:29:00.000+08:00

im back. to blog.
BOWLING. it was a random wednesday when we decided to go esp cuz it was the first wednesday without choir. having nth to do thr we went bowling : rayrin frederick novabelle chingchieh lixuan and i. freddy owned and it was the first time guin was bowling.
let's go bowling again!
NDP PREVIEW last sat. i watched with lixuan cuz she got free tix, actually her parents came too but lucky they were sitting elsewhere. the platform looks cool, but the background which is the construction of the IR spoil the image.
the view of the spectators was spectacular. particularly cuz everyone had this light in a star shaped thingy, and different people had different colours, and also because of the cool spotlight from the back. i think i'm gg to donate the national flag and other random stuff to the choir room. no tidbits cuz i finished them, and dont dream about getting the voucher booklet.
fireworks! wasn't the best i've seen, but the atmosphere just made it the best. you know, atmosphere. haha.
ok this is random. fried chocolate mars bars. think im quite outdated to try it for the first time, just fascinated by it. its yummy men.

SIMPSONS THE MOVIE WAS JUST UBER UBER UBER FUNNY AND COOL.
no joke. pls go and watch it.

HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF PHOENIX
was just ok. i tot goblet of fire was better.

HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS
made me sleep at 1am ( its damn late for a pig like me ) when thr's sch the next day.

2 MONTHS
and much more to go, lix

9.52PM
thats when i finish my random post. now.

9.53PM
thats when i'm gg to publish my post
and do my freaking pw.

2007-07-19T22:01:00.000+08:00

champions at hearts,
we sing to create music

2007-07-19T21:29:00.000+08:00

BACK from PATTAYA

even though the flight back was SQ, i wouldn't mind not taking it and stay in pattaya.

VJ CHOIR. 2 category champions. 1 category runner-up. jury prize.

i'm damn happy to be part of this achievement, not letting down the numerous batches of seniors that paved the reputation of VJ Choir.

cheers to all of you

we all did it because its nil sine labore

if only we can travel around the world taking part in competitions rather than coming back here to study.

P C M E -> S E E E

ok la, considering that i always pon LAST TIME. i should feel lucky that i passed 3 subjects, and also lucky that i didnt do well.

bring me back to 50960
to tower wing
to the poolside
to sri racha room
to the competition hall
to royale garden plaza
to pattaya

rawl.

2007-07-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

the most fruitful exco-musico meeting happened today

and i'm glad it occurred.
cuz it makes me realise that i'm an incompetent sl.

being the worst is one thing ( and i never like to compare with my fellow comm mates )
being incompetent is another

rayrin has the patience, does the soft approach to capture basses' attention and interest and commands the respect

novabelle is hardworking, trains with fellow altos one to one and her cheerful disposition brings the better of the section

isabelle ensures that the sopranos learn and enjoy at the same time, giving them the comfort zone that maximizes their ability

i know whats wrong with myself, but can someone tell me whats wrong with me.

i can't seem to make things right

and i know i caused the tenors to have different tones. my tone is changing cuz of voice lessons. i dunno whether its good or bad.

i seem to make things go wrong

i'm trying

and wth. my father just gave me S$200 worth of baht
he better give me more before i leave la
i can just go and survive on the boring hotel food
and loads of cashew nuts and ikan billis
maybe some cup noodles la. tom yam flavour ones.

nvm la. at least only S$200 will be gone when someone try to pickpocket me.
then again its priceless if they try to rape me.
whatever wayne u're full of crap

hoping that tap water goes well with cashew nuts and ikan billis

2007-07-08T22:56:00.000+08:00

who the hell took the choir room keys

i think that person has no shame, be it a choir or non-choir culprit

cmon, our competition is like 4/5 days away and we can't get access to the keyboards conveniently?
fuck whatever that is happening to the choir room

i feel like shooting myself dead
for not being able to do any work
not wanting to catch up on my work knowing i got more to catch up after pattaya

rawl. stupid post

2007-07-05T21:44:00.000+08:00

welcome back to blogging, wayne.

you survived your midyears by completing them ( not passing them )
and you can hardly find time to play ur heart out
must i really be a mugger T.T

wellwell

watched transformers with lix. yea its uber cool. you should see her reaction when she comment that one guy in the show is cute ( can't be bothered to know his name ), so full of excitement and joy.
and i made no lies when i said that the girl was hot

wow. choir room is closed till next thurs
i promise my blood will boil if any Tieater stardiez and derrraaaama pple irritate me
fancy asking pple to pee when they're not in toilets. we dun wear pampers

for the world's sake stop wasting paper and ink pasting ' like i dun get it ' papers everywhere. the weather will be so hot due to global warming. black shirts and shorts absorb heat fastest, so do spare a thought for urself.

nth to blog about ):

2007-06-27T19:12:00.000+08:00

spare me and let me go

i need to take flight and travel elsewhere

2007-06-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

mid years are coming.

the last 3 weeks i have been scanning through notes with imprudence, and whatever i have absorbed seemed to have been obliterated from my memory.
sigh, if only i have not been so slothful in my revision during the hols. i'm sure the exams are gg to be enervate my mental strength and make me go mad. should have went for lectures before the hols to get innuendos on what's coming out, and i guessed the only thing i have accomplished was to antagonize my teachers indirectly cuz of my absence in those lucid lectures and tutorials.

i've got no aptitude in studies

i'm sure the most salient feature abt mid years is to fail, to change ur mindset and get to studying for end of years. the opulence and wealth of knowledge is up to you to grasp and understand.

the only thing i can ask for now is the teachers to show clemency about my results

wells, i'm just trying to fit in the words i just learnt for gp tml.
but i meant them ok.
i'm gonna be a good boy.

everybody, say hi to mid years 2007

2007-06-23T23:31:00.000+08:00

vj dsa auditions today. but it doesn't remind me much of last year cuz my auditions was a quiet and peaceful one at siglap south.

quite sad, that the number of dsa places are lesser compared to the last two years

i can't wait for the dsa tenors to come in and join us
but then again, the 2007 batch of vj tenors are DEFINITELY not ready to set an example as seniors

it is very important to have good seniors, and of cuz vjchoir are able to produce seniors who are able to lead well, impart techniques, impart the efficient tradition of vjchoir.

it's just really sad to say that the tenors aren't ready. having four tk tenors who have an inflicted FRIVOLOUS character, i'm just super afraid the juniors will be badly influenced and that the tenors of my batch will bring the downfall in discipline, which of cuz in the long run, leads to good choral technique and tone.

the only pple who can save us is our sc martin and our joker-turned-serious vice chairman reuben. (sorry reuben, i dun wanna get fined )

honestly, the 2007 batch of vj tenors do not lack the tone.
but they lack the technique and DISCIPLINE to improve. seriously, the other three sections have improved tremendously.

i'm really happy that the year 2 seniors have taught us well, but in the end its up to ourselves to determine what's in us, what's in vj's standard of tenors.

slackers-turned-enthusiasts pple like jian and keith deserves the nod cuz they're not what they used to be ( sorry la, u guys noe u slacked back in tk. fine, with ME. )
but as a section its not enough

if anyone can't commit to even normal practices then i'll appreciate that he/she leaves and quit. im sure the whole choir stands the same ground as i do.

i'm sorry to say this tenors, but we really need the discipline.
dun give me that, give vj choir that.

nomanisanisland

2007-06-22T16:22:00.000+08:00

a recession
uncertainty and worry
seems to be the theme of late

a recession
has become my story
i will not accept my fate ( sorry babes/jeremiah for changing lyrics )

thru the epic of wayne's labour movement,
he is finally out of the jaws of recession

celebration
properity and vigour
seems to be the theme of late

celebration
mighty, strong and rigour
i have finally changed my fate ( once again, sorry babes/jeremiah )

sigh. i've become very lame recently
pre-exams syndrome

bugger RR i owe you $5.50 and i'll remember it for life
you can't earn back that $5.50 by winning games of gunbound

2007-06-22T00:38:00.000+08:00

what do u call cliques that make up a clique?

mini-clique? ( sounds like mini-clip. ok not funny )
i call them zomgttm ( not funny either )

T.T

i'm trying to build my fantasy land in this complicated world
for this world no longer used to be as round as what it seemed.

if tears could form calm and soothing lakes of crystallized brilliance
look how beautiful this world would be

but as you open your eyes
you see silhouettes that seemed to threaten within the scope of the moonlight

you close your eyes
to say a prayer of hope

and you know for real
somewhere in your heart

a beautiful world is created

mystical, and angelic

temporary, yet moving

if only time is intelligent enough to stop at the right time..

2007-06-21T12:45:00.000+08:00

WATER NIGHT

Night with the eyes of a horse that trembles in the night,
night with eyes of water in the field asleep
is in your eyes, a horse that trembles,
is in your eyes of a secret water.

Eyes of shadow-water,
eyes of well-water,
eyes of dream-water.

Silence and solitude,
two little animals moon-led,
drink in your eyes,
drink in those waters.

If you open your eyes,
night opens, doors of musk,
the secret kingdom of the water opens
flowing from the center of night.

And if you close your eyes,
a river fills you from within,
flows forward, darkens you:
night brings its wetness to beaches in your soul.

beautiful, beautiful.

2007-06-20T20:31:00.000+08:00

uber nice song
im sure you all know that (:

2007-06-20T19:37:00.000+08:00

you enter the gym today and see some aunties cycling happily on stationary bikes. as usual they don't seem to summon enough charismatic aura to catch ur eye, so u just log ur name in at the counter and grab a absorbed-tons-of-sweat-by-other-pple-then-go-through-machine-wash towel, and proceed to the treadmill.

at the treadmill u see a buffed guy running at a faster-than-what-you-sprint pace, a layer of sweat coated over him that seemed to make him look a lil shiny, like a knight in his shining armour. you see one empty treadmill left beside him, and you know its gg to be pressurizing running beside him, although no matter how fast he run he will always be running at the same spot - beside you.

just as you stepped onto the treadmill that ' knight in his shining armour ' asked you to constantly check the distance he has covered
but that's not that point. just right at the last lap of running when he was putting all his energy and efforts into it, he still has the breath to ask a favour from you. wait, he had to repeat three times before u finally knew what he was trying to mean.
you can't turn down his request, so you offered to help and look at the electronic meter. ' 5.23 km..5.31..5.32..5.33...5.34.. ' and he finally pressed the stop button. you feel inferior towards that 3 digits, but thats not all. u saw four more numbers beside them, 24:59. yes, you know he completed 5.34 km in 25 minutes. that ' knight' then called a gym trainer to check his distance covered, and you know he topped the gym's challenge.

what more can you say? you humbly start your running, and your mind started to wander away thinking about 5.34km in 25 minutes. before you could continue wondering you realised that you have completed your 2.4km. right, so you get off that treadmill to continue with your other exercises, comforting yourself for completing 2.4 which everyone including juniors 4 years younger are capable of doing.
but dreads you see that 'knight' following his normal gym routine after that run. there's nth more you can really say or comment, so you went back to your exercises while craving for a humble pie at the same time, knowing that that's the only thing you can eat.

2007-06-19T00:58:00.000+08:00

is DSA a backdoor entry to jc?

that's what my junior claim in his blog

yes, given the new implemented education polices two years back it has been made clear that there is a two way entry to jcs.
dsa and o lvls
three way in fact, if u consider IP. but thats not the point

yes, its a two way entry to jcs, but that doesn't mean that one takes the red carpet treatment through the front door and the other enter humbily from the back.

yes, i agree that i couldn't have made it into vj through my score and im struggling like shit academically to pace with the rest.

recent trends has it that the young generation need to excel not only in academic areas but oso in other fields aka ccas
but who can have the best of both worlds? its just a small minority

being equipped academically is still important and essential, but talents in other areas are needed to strike a balance.
i'm not saying im a talent. hell lot of other dsa pple are talents in their own field of capability.
these talents that they have are not shortcuts for entries to jcs. just as other students study hard to obtain good results, time is needed to groom such talents. yet still they are binded with the necessary education to survive in the outside world.
i dun think dsas should be criticized this way.

i appeal to the pple who think that dsa is a backdoor entry

in the end its all abt how and what u have achieved and succeeded in life

i mean life, and not just academically.

2007-06-17T23:50:00.000+08:00

love isn't light, or dark

its not expressionless, but yet it cannot be expressed by words

the existence of love can make miracles, yet it can cause disasters

love is sweet and endearing, yet it is powerful

love has no ears to hear, no eyes to see, no mouth to speak, no skin to feel, no nose to smell
but it has a heart that feels, that hears, that sees , that speaks, that smells

all in a language thats unspoken
yet spoken in the language of our hearts

love is an emotion, not a duration

love comes from something that is long developed, yet it sparkles at the right moment

love is an opposite of hate, yet it can turn into hatred

love is up to you to feel, not to believe

but when u feel it, u believe in it

2007-06-17T16:12:00.000+08:00

You Are 69% Grown Up, 31% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.
Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

90% pure
You Are 90% Pure

You're so pure ... you make a nun look like a whore!

There's a lot of life's dark side left for you to experience... if you want to.

The 100 Question Purity Test

Your Love Life is Like The Princess Bride

"Since the invention of the kiss, there have only been five kisses that were rated the most passionate, the most pure. This one left them all behind."

For you, love is like a fairy tale - albeit a fairly twisted one.
You believe romance is all about loyalty, fate, and a good big of goofy fun.

Your love style: Idealistic yet quirky

Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Perfectly romantic

What Movie Is Your Love Life Like?

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional.
You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly.
Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you.
You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature.
Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is medium.
In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.
But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!
There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is medium.
You tend to be the one with more power.
You aren't a total control freak in relationships..
But of course you don't mind getting you way!

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is low.
This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships..
It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life.
In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together.

The Five Variable Love Test

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause.
You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them.

Power: force beams from your eyes

Which of the X-Men Are You?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Your Love Element Is Earth

In love, you have consistency and integrity.
For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered.

You attract others with your zest for life and experiences.
Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time.

Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life.
You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk.

You connect best with: Fire

Avoid: Wood

You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation

What Element Is Your Love?

oh wells, that's me.
after all these silly quizes. not very accurate though.
all this comes with a price of not studying (:

2007-06-16T17:30:00.000+08:00

studying = ):

last minute studying = ):

no money = no food

no food = ):

no money + no food + last minute studying = ): + ): + ): = ): TO THE MAX

walao. havent felt so broke for a looooooong time

2007-06-16T17:06:00.000+08:00

can someone buy me the 9 value pack of super cup noodles
the instant noodles at home sucks

money crisis T.T
still got jts. like what the hell

lawl.

2007-06-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

my second quiz was made for fun

for those who did well, u have much luck

for those who didn't, u have no luck

haven't been blogging a proper post these days, primarily out of laziness

i'm left with :
the whole of physics
the whole of econs
abt 4 chapts of chem (just brushed thru the rest )
abt 3 chapts of math ( just brushed thru the rest )

it'll be no use even if i sing Celtic Blessing a million times
=(

--another improper post

2007-06-14T15:39:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

ANOTHER QUIZ!
THE NEXT LEVEL

u sure u can do as well in the next level?

try it!

(:

2007-06-12T12:30:00.000+08:00

few days back i watched ocean's 13.
men it uber rocks ttm
at that time i was broke, but i found a hsbc credit card under one seat
still i returned it to the management la. good deed done ok!
can't wait for transformers and fantastic 4 T.T

guess i got to be geared up ( yea i mentioned that i need to gear up in my blog donkey days ago )

hopefully.

2007-06-08T21:21:00.000+08:00

2007-06-06T22:03:00.001+08:00

finally included the POWERPUFF GIRLS. HAPPY? lawl. everyone noes who powerpuff girls are, like how everyone noes who power rangers are. ( i mean the real ones ) BLOSSOM is JIAMING!

Blossom - usually referred as the " commander and leader" , blossom is seen as the most mature, level-headed and composed member of the group, although she can also be fussy, overbearing and overly analytical. Sometimes tends to be quite bossy with Buttercup and Bubbles. She is studying Conversational Chinese, as shown in two of the episodes.

Special power : Ice Breath, also to breathe fire. BUTTERCUP is CHING CHIEH!

Buttercup - usually referred as the "toughest fighter", she is the group's tomboy. Sometimes her aggression gets the better of her, making her reckless, stubborn and too aggressive. She possesses a mean and somewhat vindictive streak not shared by her sisters. However, she has shown a softer side in several episodes. She is usually the strongest physically and is obsessed with her soft green blanket.

Special power: Able to fly slightly faster than Blossom and Bubbles, ability to roll tongue ( no one in townsville could do it except her), physically strongest.
BUBBLES is LIXUAN!

Bubbles - usually referred as the "joy and laughter", meaning that she acts as the baby of the group (despite being the same age) and is defined by innocence, playfulness and gentle demeanor. She does, however, have a tendency to be naive, submissive and overemotional, leading to her often being (unfairly) regarded, by friends and foes alike, as the group's weak link. Can be very aggressive and independent when pushed.

Special power: speak many languages, including Spanish ( speaking ) and Japanese (both reading and speaking), and communicate with animals, such as cats and most notably squirrels. She also has Sonic Scream.
WHITE RANGER IS RAY RIN!

White Ranger - originally known as the Green Power Ranger. Before that he was villain because of the evil spell. After the spell was broken, he joined the power rangers until he lost his Green Ranger powers. He returned as White Power Ranger in season two and became the team's leader. His weapon is a saba sword and his morpher is a White Tiger-Falcon.

Name: Tommy Oliver
RED RANGER is XIAN YONG!

Red Ranger- First leader of the team. Usually receive the most powerful weapon. His main weapon is usually a sword. Usually fight against the villain forces' top general. His morpher is the Tyrannosaurus.

Name: Jason Lee Scott

BLACK RANGER is JEREMY!

Black ranger- A practical joker, he used dance moves and martial arts to fight. In the sentai version, Black Ranger usually serves as second in command. His weapon is a power axe and his morpher is a Mastodon (sth like a mammoth).

Name: Zack Taylor
PINK RANGER is JIALING!

Pink Ranger - She was a gymnast with a valley girl attitude. Pink Ranger is usually the subordinate member of the team, and receive the most candid weapon. Her weapon is a power bow and her morpher is a Pterodactyl/Crane.

Name: Kimberly Hart
YELLOW RANGER is NOVABELLE!

Yellow Ranger - She tried to set a good example and was able to translate Billy's technobabble. Also usually the subordinate member of the team, she is usually the team's morale booster. Her weapon is a pair of power daggers and her morpher is a Saber - Toothed Tiger.

Name : Trini Kwan

BLUE RANGER is ME!

Blue Ranger - He held his position for the longest, and was the smartest and a serious member of the team. His weapon is a power lance and his morpher is a Triceratops.

Name: Billy Cranston

CREDITS: Wikipedia

haha. isn't it cool to noe ur childhood favourite characters better now. memories galore!

you can address..

jiaming as blossom

ching chieh as buttercup

lixuan as bubbles

rayrin as tommy

xianyong as jason

jeremy as zack

jialing as kimberly

novabelle as trini

me as wayne

enjoy. (;

------another fttm post

2007-06-06T00:05:00.000+08:00

counting stars

counting down

2007-06-05T22:57:00.001+08:00

POWER RANGERS! haha. i know this is stupid, irrelevant, and comical to the max. but, WE ARE THE POWER RANGERS ! lol! can't stop laughing.
it all started in pastamania when i had this stupid idea of calling nova, jl, xy, jeremy, rr and i power rangers cuz there is the powerpuff girls.

relive our childhood memories! after so many years, power rangers still look cool to me. of cuz i mean with their costumes on.
haha. red ranger is XIANYONG. but he doesn't even noe cuz he's overseas. i chose for him this. lol.
black ranger is JEREMY. i chose for him this too. wanted green but thr's no green ranger in the movie. plus he's the most tanned. so yea, black!

wa white ranger looks so zai. that's rr. LOL.
nova's yellow ranger. think is she choose one ba. oh, she's quite on abt this power ranger thing. lawl.

jl's pink ranger. she chose herself one. quite suitable for her la, pink ranger is quite emo one right. haha

haha. thats me, blue ranger. i like this since young, cuz blue's my favourite colour. lol lol lol. i can't stop laughing. now i feel like a young kid who wants to be blue ranger. zzz.

haha. this picture's damn cool. this whole power rangers thing is unofficial. lol.
i think this is the most comical post i ever posted.
maybe i should get each of them to do a power ranger pose. that'll be fttm!

ok i shall be serious for once,

POWER RANGERS!!!!!

2007-06-05T00:20:00.001+08:00

come back u little ape

can't wait.

2007-06-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

chinese oldies rock!

失戀陣線聯盟

寶貝對不起

暗戀的代價

grasshopper rocks!

2007-06-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

hey guys, can you do the quiz. having just four names on the scoreboard is pathetic T.T
plus, my quiz is easy to score!

today's my first day of mugging. finished chemical equilibrium and 3/4 of bonding.
er, for the first day its really not bad. shall gear up tml.

shall take this hols as a chance to build up my body!
and sadly, to mug.

actually, when am i still keeping this blog alive. everytime when i try to type out a post, i'll be staring at blank space, or nonsensical words i type dreamily.
do i have no life, or is my life bounded my secrets that can never be revealed?

hmmm. people come and go. but can i make them stay?

i wanna go for the artsfest's PLAY!A Video Game Symphony on either 15 or 16 june.
ANYONE WANNA GO? ITS 20 BUCKS. (cheapest)
the orchestra and choir will showcase award winning video game music from games like final fantasy, super mario bros, world of warcraft, sonic the hedgehog and more!
consort will be singing as the choir
someone go with me leh. it'll be cool and exciting
video game graphics shown on screens somemore!

year 1 batch is improving, though i haven really heard the girls. the year 1 tenors have not let me down, yet. but i'm like shit. lol.

what an informal post.

2007-06-02T21:48:00.000+08:00

ok. let me start on a proper post.

30th may 2006
31st may 2007
..random.

one week of hols has passed, and i've done nth that concerns studying. trying to grab and hold any tinge of the desire to study i have in my mind. im lagging behind by leaps and bounds, i have to start my machine now.

finally get to change my blogskin. i like the picture of the cool guy soaked in the rain. i like people who are cool, and i dun mean that i am one. cool pple are...cool.

1 week is long. its only the first day. cmon wayne, you can do it.

i love my friends. i want you to be my friend, a good one.

a start of a new overlapped chapter. i don't know what lies ahead. i'm just glad that there's someone who is able to accept who i am, no matter how bad i am.
i owe it to you, to you, to loads of people.
am i given a chance to change?

haha. this post is full of random stuff that you have no idea what i'm talking abt.

physics.
chemistry.
maths.
economics.
-dammit.

why is it that my singing is still not fully back in shape. i'm beginning to fear.
i'm beginning to love

i want to start anew.

2007-06-01T13:54:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

take the test!

2007-05-29T11:52:00.000+08:00

enough said, i cant hide from this fact
that im just a beast
a beast.

losing my voice is not enough for retribution
so where are the rest of the punishment?

i hate my heart
i hate myself
i hate to be a beast

2007-05-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

unable to control
unable to understand
unable to comprehend.

L is cool. thats why i decided to put up his pic.

acjc choir concert tml..

i wanna count stars

2007-05-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

im SICK!
a lil la. feeling heaty, then got this 50% fever feeling. sian, there's napfa tml, sure get scolded for taking napfa so late and also my hair, bla bla bla
and i think i lost the band concert ticket T.T

just feel that i'm trapped in this i-dunno-what hole or a i-dunno-what web.
i'm unable to face the facts of life, i want to live in my imagination, my facade
dun think anyone noes what i'm talking abt, lol.

i'm a selfish guy who doesn't wanna hurt himself.
change me.

2007-05-20T21:57:00.000+08:00

i want to be like him
or him

or him!

nah. I'M NOT PRAISING MYSELF.
i.. just wanna be like what i am in the old days

perhaps more carefree, less troubled, and yes, no pimples T.T
jokes aside, but yea, jc life is difficult.
ITS TERRIBLE.
i've no idea what i'm doing now, and the problem seems to be aggrandizing. ever since i started on a new blog again the posts are all emo.

identity crisis, or not.

well, emoness aside. guitar and harmoc concert was ok. wanna go watch band's concert to get exposed to other areas of the performing arts. then again, i'm gg for ac, mj and tp's choir concert. hope it'll be cool.

i want hip hop jelly, ben & jerry's and paddle pop.
i want my identity back

2007-05-20T01:23:00.000+08:00

how fast can cliques change
how fast can friends change
how long can i stay?

making friends is easy, but maintaining a good friendship is hard. this theory applies to relationship as well.
if friendship is built on mutual trust and understanding, why do friends still come and go?

a relationship is a friendship, but a friendship isn't a relationship

2007-05-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

i finally blog again.

there's only one reason why i'm doing this : vjchoir

sov 2007 zoomed past in a flash after months of practice.this sends an important signal : i'm never going to sing in a complete vjchoir as a junior, or as a member till the next batch comes in. if i'm here to express my pain for seeing the seniors leave, i should be shooting myself dead.
whatever im experiencing now is nothing compared to the seniors.
nothing.

instead, i'm here to blog about how amazing the seniors are. its true, that the 2006 batch of vjchoir is a very very strong batch. i have to admit that every single one of them possess a technically good voice, and i can never find a senior who has a weak vocal technique.
they set an example not only by their voice, but by their hearts. their passion.

i am very sure that the year 1 chorus would not have improved so much without the motivation of the year 2s, without the examples set by them.

i was thinking, why can't the 2006 batch have their last performance in july like the 2005 batch? why can't there be another sco performance in july? its true that we can never contemplate on they feel. we were not the ones who went to italy, who took the esplanade concert hall last year. but at least, we grew together with them for the past 5 months, through syf and sov. a bond has been forged, the flame of passion has grew, and it will continue to.
now that many year 2s are leaving, the year 1s have to become more independent, and of cuz, less frivolous.

just for the year 1s, the years 2s have to sweat blood out to give voice lessons and extra sectionals. i'm sure the year 1 chorus is sth we owe the seniors. without them, singing dale como es would never be successful. i have improved drastically since joining vjchoir.
i thank the seniors, every single one of you. thank you.
i am sure that my batch will ensure you guys that we will continue to grow as one.

as long as the passion lives, we live.
thats why vjchoir lives.

ciao bella, ciao.